triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2009-08-14 02:48 pm

Fail Better

Yesterday's massive, if localized, Shipment of Race-and-Sexuality-Fail by some speculative fiction writers (I'm not linking; they've already got more publicity attention and critique than they can handle, I'm sure) caused several things to click for me regarding the issues of prejudice, -isms, and privilege that have been circling the Internets lately. I kept thinking of writing a post about it, but my brain was too tired and I had too much to do, and I'm still really in the beginning stages of understanding this crap. So instead, today I came across some essays and explanations and attempts at education; for my own information as much as any of yours, I'm collecting them here:
Sorry if this got long.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2009-04-13 08:57 pm

Reading in bed? Reading or bed?

I like (writing) the book meme better than (writing) the sex meme, damnit. Deal.

Stolen from featherynscale )
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-12-20 12:53 am
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Sorta Happy Ending

Been too body-and-brain busy lately for Happy Thoughts, and today I spent far too much time in an angry headspace. The practice of this exercise is good for remembering to be grateful, but I was pretty sure I was going to miss a few days here in the midst of Holiday Hell.

And then tonight, B.D.U. gave me/us the early X-mas gift of Ginger Snap, Sweet Louise, and Puss-in-Boots, all in the same number, on the stage, at once, together.

S'okay. Really. :D For a while, anyway...
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-12-16 08:39 pm
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Happy Thoughts at Home

Today's happiness is centered around my ridiculously competent car. Nothing to look at, and a manual transmission to boot which means I'm the only one in my house who likes driving it; but the ability to manage snow and hills that make trucks cry, excellent gas mileage, and improbable hauling capacity, makes me smile. Especially during Snownami 2008...
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2008-12-12 01:01 pm

Happy Thoughts, Revisited

Today I am most happy for XKCD, mostly because it reminds me how trivial and first-world my relationship/Linux/physics/raptor problems really are, but also because it makes me laugh out loud, when so few things do.

If you've never read it, read it. Five of the last six have been brilliant (today's is kinda "eh")... and don't forget to read the title text with your cursor!
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-12-11 03:43 pm
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Son of Happy Thoughts

Today, I am most happy for warm socks. No cold toes in the morning, no chilly ankles outside, no overheating in the office from too many shirt layers.

And, y'know, brown argyle. They're kinda "me".
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-12-10 01:56 pm

Happy Thoughts

I'm liking this "post one thing that makes you happy each day for a week" meme. I don't know if I'll end up doing it for a week, 2 days, or 4 months, but today's as good a day to start as any.

Today, I am happy for sappy dreams about meeting/courting [livejournal.com profile] featherynscale, who in the dreamscape was a retail clerk (or some other sweet-young-thing job) at a small shop run by the only African-American businesswoman in 'Mayberry'ville, Iowa, and living in a tiny two-room apartment over the shop. Over the course of the dream, we got engaged (discreetly, it being a small town and possibly set in the actual-mythical 1950's) which pleased her boss to no end, and started looking for a bigger place.

The best part, however? Cut to protect the diabetic... )

Thus endeth the sap.
triadruid: Foamy the Squirrel, from Ill Will Press, looking very lost and swearing about it.  (foamy)
2008-11-05 06:48 pm

No punchline...

Q: What do you call a sociopath with a poorly developed sense of self and anger management issues?
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-06-10 09:33 am
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Something is wrong in my brain

If and when I ever get a full night's sleep, I feel like I've wasted many hours of my life that I could have been doing something.

This isn't a new phenomenon, either; I've been this way since high school, at the least. My insomnia is as much self-directed as it is chronic...

::edit:: And yes, I did get ~8 hours of sleep last night. [livejournal.com profile] featherynscale says I look better. I don't feel much better, except for the not-nodding-off thing.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-03-21 07:25 am
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"What is the best thing about being part of The Trinity?"

[livejournal.com profile] archway asked, so I'm answering.

Probably the best thing about being part of the Trinity is the geometric growth of benefits. I believe it's easier to us to find X/Y/Z like/want/need in this grouping that it would be in virtually any ordinary pairing. If my other thirds want spicy foods, they know they can find someone who wants that, without badgering the partner (me) who doesn't dig on that sort of thing. [livejournal.com profile] featherynscale and I can go watch zombie films, leaving [livejournal.com profile] kittenpants to happily do something that doesn't involve brains in such a detailed manner. Somebody has an idea that I think is completely unworkable? They can go work on it together until it's a better idea, or until they've run it into the ground of their own volition. Sometimes I hear about it again, sometimes not... either way, nobody got thwarted or had to look very far for validation or a co-conspirator. This is a fairly big deal, to me at least, because I tried for years to fulfill the "one true destined love" fantasy*, and mostly just made myself and my partners crazy.

Finances and chores scale to a large degree too, of course (not including [livejournal.com profile] kittenpants' tendency to cook for either 1 or the Mongol Horde). But that's more of a side-benefit, even though we probably never would have gotten such a nice house without it (and we actually, almost, have enough room for all of our stuff here).

Sure, there's additional problems of expansion in size; triangulation, communication difficulties, imbalance/jealousy, but they're not as significant (for us) as the easy way in which we became, essentially, "more than the sum of our parts".

* Yes, even while being in love with three different women at once. I don't get it, either...
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-03-13 08:31 am
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Radio silence...

Will be out-of-pocket today, in the Faraday cage underground storage facility our office uses. So in lieu of me posting anything, I give you a meme for me to return to, and work on... (caught this originally from [livejournal.com profile] arkhamrefugee I believe):

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, etc. Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2008-03-05 03:46 pm
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"S", "O", "W", what does that spell?

...a bumper crop of memes, that's what. That's okay, though, because I like this one's emphasis on the positive!

saffronhare gave me 'S' )
featherynscale laid an 'O' on me )
lilia_blackbear said 'W' )
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2008-03-05 10:57 am
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K is a harder letter than you'd think...

That, or I'm paralyzed by my huge vocabulary. *headdesk* Anyway, I blame [livejournal.com profile] archway for this meme. She gave me 'K', and here are 10 a bunch of things I like that start with that letter...
  • Kissing - I could do this for hours, and at very slight provocation. I used to be bad at it, believe it or not... (I was a tongue-puller)
  • Kathy Spenler - Momma Kat. 'nuff said...
  • Karen - my aunt Karen is an absolute sweetheart, and one of the few people on that side of my family that I'd still like to keep in touch with now that my mom has passed away. Also, she has the World's Coolest Small Dog, "Hans Olo".
  • KIMBABIG (otherwise known as Megadeth's debut album, Killing Is My Business... And Business Is Good!) - abysmal production values, reckless time signatures, and more enthusiasm/anger than skill, but I still love this album. If only they hadn't had to censor "These Boots" for the CD re-master...*snort*
  • Krakatoa - the history of this place has always fascinated me, ever since I read The Twenty-One Balloons as a kid... the idea that the planet could randomly just destroy an entire island was, and is, mind-blowing.
  • K9 - dogs, police dogs, Doctor Who's minion... it's all good!
  • Kal-El - I like the big lug Boy Scout. Sue me.
  • Killin' Stuff - I've been a fan of Hack-n-Slash/Blow-em'-Up games for decades. Battletech on my old 386DX, D&D in all forms, Crossed Swords on the Neo-Geo, Diablo II, etc...
  • KDE - always been my favorite Linux desktop; dunno why...
  • Kawasaki Ninja - sexy, stupid-fast bike.
  • Kevlar - very technologically impressive material, and of course terribly useful.
Anybody else who wants to play/get a letter, comment to that effect.
triadruid: Roland Deschain from the Dark Tower novel "The Gunslinger", looking at a raven sitting on a skull on the ground. (dark tower)
2008-02-25 05:16 pm

Our Deepest Fear

This poem always rattles around my brain in the strangest moments, and it crossed my radar again just now. Worth noting:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

A Return to Love - Marianne Williamson
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-12-17 02:08 pm

That seems...unlikely.


Your Score: The Frog


You scored 39% domestic, 39% gregarious, 35% trickster, and 44% intellect!




Wild, Solitary, Serious and Emotional: you are the Frog!

Sensitivity, regeneration, renewal. In many cultures, frogs are a strong symbol of luck and wealth. Frog medicine teaches the power of transforming oneself, a natural path of change that occurs over a lifetime. Frog is also a symbol of femininity and fertility, and natural healing. Frog people tend to be pleasant, positive, and well in-tune with the energies around them.


This test categorized you based on four different axes of personality, which were then associated with a different animal. The four axes, as well as all possible results are explained below.



Read more... )

triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-11-05 12:53 am

Things to remember from ritual

  1. Rather than take on any more oaths I can't be sure that I'll meet, I decided to give up something in the sacrifical portion: "I give up the safety of fear."
  2. Pomegranate seeds taken from the bowl: 7 1/2. If the myth about 1 seed = 1 month works out to be true, that means my goal will come to fruition in mid-June, 2008.

    ::edit:: Appending said oaths (none yet achieved) here rather than in my profile:
    An oath to finish decorating/carving "Dagda's Club", made I believe on Lughnassadh or Samhain 2004.
    "I vow to speak no word that is not true." -- 08/22/2004
    Superseded by:
    An oath made to Oghma, to uphold Truth as a Virtue, or sacrifice the equivalent of three handworked leather disks if I fail to do so. -- 12/21/2004
    An oath made to Lugh, to uphold Dignity of self and others, or sacrifice the equivalent of nine handworked leather disks if I fail to do so. -- 12/21/2004
    An oath to begin (again) in earnest on my Dedicant's program, during the time I have off from Ritual Teams this summer. --04/17/2005
    A promise to learn, and integrate into my life, the Song of Amergin. -- 04/30/2006
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-09-13 01:30 pm

The universe provides

I was just about to ask if there was some sort of reputable career-matcher out there (I remember going through a good one back in High School at the library, but my opinions have changed somewhat since then), and what do I find on my friends list but http://www.careercruising.com/?

Their list is below (put in Username: nycareers and Password: landmark to access it):

  1. Environmental Consultant
  2. Actuary - huh, that's one I wouldn't have thought of...
  3. Mathematician - I almost thought about doing this, in college.
  4. Planner - Could be interesting..
  5. Cartographer - Is that actually a viable field anymore??
  6. Statistician
  7. Operations Research Analyst - a what?
  8. Meteorologist - no thanks
  9. Environmental Engineer
  10. Federal Agent - this is my 'shocked' face.
  11. GIS Specialist - Sure, possibly.
  12. Business Systems Analyst
  13. Logistics Specialist
  14. Computer Programmer - Not likely, when I told it I didn't want to work insane hours...
  15. Market Research Analyst
  16. Community Worker - Ya think??
  17. Researcher
  18. Database Developer - Been there, done that, haven't been paid for it.
  19. Scientist - could you be a BIT more specific, please???
  20. Landscape Architect - Sure, that could be fun.
  21. Architect
  22. Certified Public Accountant - ??? I can't even do my own taxes...
  23. Economist
  24. Historian
  25. Corporate / Commercial Lawyer - Hahahahahahaha...
  26. Ecologist
  27. Astronomer
  28. Political Aide - Sure, because that's a nice steady job...
  29. Video Game Developer - Not bloody likely, I'm much too Old Sk00l...
  30. Quality Controller - How does one break into that field, anyway?
  31. Web Developer
  32. Building Inspector - Makes sense.
  33. Public Policy Analyst - I think that'd be more of a long-term goal career...
  34. Industrial-Organizational Psychologist - What does that even mean?
  35. Librarian
  36. Desktop Publisher
  37. Computer Animator
  38. General Contractor - Again, more specific?
  39. Management Consultant - Heh, not likely.
  40. Civil Engineer - Interesting, the first time I took it a lot more "* Engineering" careers came up
Bolded entries came up as "Very Good Match" for my skillset, all the rest were "Good Match". Interestingly, my skills/lack thereof didn't knock anything below "Good Match"...

Also, it didn't ask anything about expected income, and the questions about working evenings/weekends didn't seem to affect it much.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-04-25 07:12 pm

Shiny! Let's crash their server...

I mean, here's a fun interactive meme, based on the Golden Compass film that's coming out later this year (which I haven't read the books to):



Incarnations so far: ocelot, domestic cat, lynx, ocelot, domestic cat, lynx, ocelot... I'm going in circles here, kids. Oops, just changed myself to an ermine by agreeing with almost everything. WTF? And now back back to ocelot, then domestic cat...heh. It's like a feline carousel.

P.S. In some ways, the website version is more interesting, because it tells you how many times you've changed.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-04-13 12:03 pm

*blink*blink*

Wow... you know how some people have smell as a powerful sense memory trigger?

I just got one for a voice over the phone. That was... awkward, internally at least.
triadruid: Apollo and the Raven, c. 480 BC , Pistoxenus Painter  (Default)
2007-02-23 12:39 pm

Hardly content-free at all

I'm argumentative today. Okay, strike that; I'm more argumentative than usual today. I'm not sure if this bodes well or ill for my evening and Saturday. On the other hand, this post has been percolating since Tuesday, at least, I just haven't been around to make it...

A couple of things crossed my radar going in opposite directions this last week. The first was Rosie O'Donnell's idiotic comments about "Ching Chong Chinamen" (which I apparently missed back in December), and the video rebuttal from Beau Sia, an Chinese-American slam artist. I really enjoyed his take on the issue, which made my reaction to Exhibit B all the more surprising.

George Takei took issue with retired sports figure Tim Hardaway's homophobic remarks last week, and recorded a "mock PSA" in which he began in an informative and neutral style, then camped it up by commenting on how much he "really liked" Hardaway, running his fingers up the leg of Hardaway's image behind him and making various not-so-thinly-veiled innuendos. See the video clip for yourself. Somehow, this rubbed me the wrong way from the get-go; I don't think it's kosher to "taunt" someone who is uncomfortable with homosexuality any more than it's okay to taunt a gay man by throwing them amidst a pack of horny females, for example. The final line "And one day, when you least expect it, I WILL have sex with you!" was just the capstone of that problem for me - it feeds right into the prejudices that already exist, and doesn't do a damn thing to create a dialogue, as far as I can tell. It's reverse bigotry in my world, but several people I know liked the skit, so maybe I'm out of the 'norm' here. But on the other hand, I'm not sure I agree with the NBA's decision to ban him Hardaway from all future All-Star events.