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With all the drama over non-childsafe posts, you'd think they'd have figured out that this post:
one more drink and i'll be gone.

from what i understand, mike reads my livejournal. i don't give a shit right now. maybe if he reads this, he'll understand why i am so mad at him right now.

last night he calls and i answer the phone. i am half-asleep, as i got less than an hour of sleep the night before. he calls me again a half-hour later demanding to know what guy picked up the phone earlier. IT WAS FUCKING ME, OKAY. seriously. nothing i say will convince him. i gave him my word and that is apparently not good enough. and he is SO MAD that a guy could have been answering my phone. what if i was in lynn and it was my dad? what guys would i actually feel comfortable enough with to let them answer my phone? my father and andrew. seriously now, come on. and the fact is, the goddamn fucking truth is that IT WAS ME. I ANSWERED MY GODDAMN PHONE. I WAS SLEEPING AND IT WAS ON THE BED NEXT TO ME AND I FUCKING ANSWERED IT. what the fuck.

i have no fucking idea why he is so convinced that i was cheating on him or some stupid shit like that. it's so fucking dumb. and it is hurtful that i give him my word, literally, and he just fucking rejects it like it's nothing. like i am some fucking untrustworthy bitch who is out to ruin his goddamn life. and i try to call him to talk about it, to get a chance to reassure him, and he picks up the phone and says "you better stop calling me." fine, if that's what you want, fuck you. seriously.

anyone who knows me knows i am crazy about him. this is so dumb. so i spend like two hours last night crying over the fact that my boyfriend apparently doesn't trust me, is content not trusting me, and won't listen to anything else. for someone who is supposed to care about me, he sure as hell quite easily treated me with complete disrespect. perhaps the most ironic part is that a week ago, as i explained to him that most guys i have dated have treated me like shit, he tells me that i deserve better than that. i am glad to see that he actually meant that.

i am still mad. i am still crying. this isn't fair. i haven't even done anything wrong and i am being accused and nothing i say can convince him otherwise.

so it comes to the point where i literally don't think i can deal with this. if it's always going to be like this, if he can't trust me, then what's the point? i am not even sure if there's anything that he could say now that would make anything better; i am genuinely hurt. i can't even think about it without crying. i feel like i mean nothing to him.

so i end with this. fuck you, you asshole, for accusing me of something, not giving me the chance to even defend myself, and making me cry. fuck you for not trusting me when you've had NO REASON whatsoever not to. fuck you for ruining my night. if this is how you really are, if this is how you really treat people, then you don't deserve someone who cares about you as much as i do.
probably should NOT have made it into their Latest Posts feed, linked to from their home page for non-logged-in visitors to the site. I cached the post just in case it's filtered later, not to spur on drama (I have no idea who this person is).

As [livejournal.com profile] diermuid said yesterday, this is likely a knee-jerk reaction to Protect the Children crusaders, more than a business decision by SixApart's upper management or a "coding initiative" by their trained codemonkeys. But that doesn't mean I have to support or endorse it, or refrain from telling them what a bad idea it was.

However, since my paid account JUST renewed for another year, I'll probably avoid any knee-jerk departures myself, but see what the social networking site landscape looks like in six months or so. I like the functionality of LiveJournal, but the last year and a half or so have shown increasingly irritating/stupid business and corporate decisions. It's too bad their user stats are private now, I wonder what the actual exodus has been...

Date: 2007-12-02 04:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] norinel.livejournal.com
The thing about the Latest Posts feed is that there are so many posts on LJ that viewing that page at any moment will show all the posts in the last maybe a minute or two. Without filtering based on certain words (Which would institute ridiculous drama for its own reason), there's no way to keep stuff out of there when your flagging system requires human oversight.

I would assume/hope that with the new filtering, entries posted to a journal that's flagged overall wouldn't make it into the Latest Posts feed; if it isn't, that's probably worth reporting as a bug.

Date: 2007-12-02 05:03 pm (UTC)
ext_3038: Red Panda with the captain "Oh Hai!" (mafia: taking care of business)
From: [identity profile] triadruid.livejournal.com
No, I understand that Latest Posts is just an RSS feed; it just illustrates the utter uselessness of their "content filtering" scheme to another level. I was literally able to read that post in one click from arriving at the site as a new user. Granted, at this hour, there's more Russian than English posts on that feed, but it's still a loophole in their schema.

Date: 2007-12-02 05:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ysathora.livejournal.com
I've decided not to give them any more money, no matter how much I will miss having over 100 icons and being able to use any layout I want. Also, I was hoping to try out the voice post feature sometime, which requires a paid account. The only reason I'm not leaving altogether is that I enjoy reading my friends list every day.

Date: 2007-12-02 06:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] diermuid.livejournal.com
I have a number of friends on MySpace, but I hate that layout. And as much as LJ is under the gun, I expect MS to be the hardest-hit victim of it's own success.

I see mostly adults in adult situations on LJ. I see a -lot- of kids in adult-like situations on MySpace.

Date: 2007-12-02 06:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] crookedface.livejournal.com
I don't do MySpace at all. Indeed, I'm only on LJ for the folks on the friends list, as its group structure sucks. I spend most of my time on Tribe.

That said, Tribe has had issues recently with tech troubles and has only begun taking on paid accounts to be able to provide more support. If the tech troubles continue, I'll have to go elsewhere (and Ning looks viable). One of the things I like about Tribe is that it's an adult site--I don't recall any minors on it in any Tribe I've joined.

All my journal posts here are friends only, in part because I don't want to ever have to think about censoring a post because minors might see it (the other part being I'm reticent to discard all of my privacy).

Date: 2007-12-02 07:08 pm (UTC)
ext_3038: Red Panda with the captain "Oh Hai!" (Default)
From: [identity profile] triadruid.livejournal.com
I think we're a bit unusual on LJ in that almost everyone in our social network is well over 18 (and most of them that aren't are kids of members of said social network). LJ almost certainly skews older than MySpace... aha, they haven't removed all of those numbers: http://www.livejournal.com/stats.bml

Of course, that's probably all accounts, not just active ones. Last time I remember seeing live data, most users were in the 16-17 year-old range.

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