Skein of Aspirations
Oct. 18th, 2005 09:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
triadruidToday is Robert Jordan's birthday, apparently; I'm nowhere near as far along in my re-read of the series as I thought, but I did finish Book 5 last night and started Lord of Chaos on my way in to work this morning. Kindly hold off on the spoilers until I get there...I'm working as fast as I can. ;) Still good stuff back in the older books, though I'm surprised at how my perceptions of the timeline differ from reality (it's more like 18 months, than 3 years...)
Speaking of interwoven threads, the ritual this past weekend about the Grail quest certainly gave me a lot to think about. It was a good ritual layout and execution (I tried to avoid spoilers for that, too, despite babysitting during one of the planning meetings), and at the end worked with the idea that the 12 areas of interest were merely distractions along the path for the true Grail.
Perhaps since I don't have a grail-shaped beacon in my life, I didn't get that lesson out of it at all. During my meditation time, it became clear how important it was/is/will be for me to integrate the different portions of my life (Religion, Sex, Love, Geek, Education, Work, etc). Right now and lately (maybe longer), I've got myself spread amongst so many different goals and projects that I'm scraped as thin as your great-grandfather's razor strap. It's showing, too; not only am I showing less productivity at work, but things aren't getting done at home, both the obligatory and the enjoyable. That's uncool; if you spend so much time making lists and thinking about future goals that you never get to focus on what you're actually doing at the time, it's sort of a waste of air, isn't it?
So maybe that wasn't the message that was intended, but something along the lines of "simplify, simplify" is coming down the pipe. Now if only I can list out the ways in which to do that...
Speaking of interwoven threads, the ritual this past weekend about the Grail quest certainly gave me a lot to think about. It was a good ritual layout and execution (I tried to avoid spoilers for that, too, despite babysitting during one of the planning meetings), and at the end worked with the idea that the 12 areas of interest were merely distractions along the path for the true Grail.
Perhaps since I don't have a grail-shaped beacon in my life, I didn't get that lesson out of it at all. During my meditation time, it became clear how important it was/is/will be for me to integrate the different portions of my life (Religion, Sex, Love, Geek, Education, Work, etc). Right now and lately (maybe longer), I've got myself spread amongst so many different goals and projects that I'm scraped as thin as your great-grandfather's razor strap. It's showing, too; not only am I showing less productivity at work, but things aren't getting done at home, both the obligatory and the enjoyable. That's uncool; if you spend so much time making lists and thinking about future goals that you never get to focus on what you're actually doing at the time, it's sort of a waste of air, isn't it?
So maybe that wasn't the message that was intended, but something along the lines of "simplify, simplify" is coming down the pipe. Now if only I can list out the ways in which to do that...
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Lessons of Jewish Buddhism
Date: 2005-10-18 02:54 pm (UTC)Seriously, though. I don't know what your definition of 'lately' is, but you've been like this the entire time I've known you.
Also, I think you're incorrect in part. You do things at home. I presume that you also do things at work. They may not be the things that you feel you should be doing, but you do seem to constantly be doing *something*.
Re: Lessons of Jewish Buddhism
Date: 2005-10-18 03:04 pm (UTC)Well, I've always been multitasked, but it's worse lately, to the point where it DOES interfere with some of those goals, ironically. And the way I am now is quite different from the simplicity of my life before I came to KC, and knew you. I don't know where that change occurred; that may be something to investigate, to get to the root cause of this.
And also, this.
Date: 2005-10-18 02:58 pm (UTC)Re: And also, this.
Date: 2005-10-18 03:02 pm (UTC)I chase lots of little things, sure (hence the always in motion/doing something).
Re: And also, this.
Date: 2005-10-18 03:15 pm (UTC)Okie
. . . butter, scraped over too much bread. . .
Date: 2005-10-18 05:47 pm (UTC)Cura te ipsum
Date: 2005-10-19 03:05 pm (UTC)I know, Jax. It's always harder to see yourself clearly.
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Date: 2005-10-18 06:32 pm (UTC)I think that is certainly part of it. Part of the message was intended to be that there is a grail, it is easy to be distracted or mistaken, and it's up to you, in the end, to achieve it.
Simplifying is easy, stop doing some of the stuff, choosing what is hard.
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Date: 2005-10-18 10:01 pm (UTC)Call me kooky.
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Date: 2005-10-19 03:10 am (UTC)re: bursting my bubble
Date: 2005-10-19 03:02 pm (UTC)